I.
I found her sleeping behind the bricks in my bedroom wall.
I called her Hannah and she called me 'Pretty Boy' which I liked a lot better than George. When I first found her she was as bereft of knowledge and weak as a kitten. I took care of her, nursed health back into her shattered mind and wasted limbs. She would look at me with her green cats-eyes and the world would swim.
At first she didn't talk at all, just watched me with those unearthly eyes. I would wake up in the middle of the night and see her gaze piercing through my mind. It would follow me into my dreams and into my life outside of the room I was beginning to think of as h
i am untouchable
they took me from my
cradle and they bleached my
hair and my eyes while the bone-white
finger-moon looked on.
howling and tearing, i am not
myself, not anything, i am
untouchable.
i have no taste and no smell. i
am no colour and your eyes have an
aversion for me, while my
ghost-bones and see-through
fingers drift through all that is
real and true. i drift
i drift through time and i
am untouchable.
they burnt last year's
silver effigy on the fire
carrion shrieks and whoops
carrying the stink and the heat and the
sacrifice up to the blind sun.
shiver and shake when i come
near, see me too dancing in a
bl
they told me to burn my wings
there is a mirror and in
it i see what i should
be. i am 67% strange. i
look at the skinny box-girls
with their cookie-cutters and
shiny eyes and mouths. i
am 67% too much.
there are glass splinters
in my hands and in my eyes
and i am running away from
the siren's call, the
sirens' wail while the red light
flashes. i have gone 67%
further than the
edge of the world. there
is a promise in the glittering teeth,
there is a promise watching
me from the monster's scales
the world is a promise. i look for
it and it cracks amd shifts
into a hundred thousand drifting
shards. i lose 67% of them be
it's been such a
time-honoured tradition, how
can any man do
any differently?
it's there, the evidence
of it is everywhere. philomela's
a nightingale, cassandra's burning
in her tower and every
girl is willing, really, no
matter what she says.
who can deny the
pleasure of hard hands on
thrashing skin, of causing
bruises and tears, of your own
sweet salvation and release at the
expense of someone
else? it's a form of artistry, an
art of vermillion and indigo,
of fragile glass and ripped-apart
silk. you're just
doing what's always been
done and isn't that just
grand and good and godly?
dear lucrece, you should
have
dido's on her pyre and i'm
singing in the dark. won't
you take me and make me
somehow better, somehow real?
i want to evaporate. she's
gone incandescent, a vision of
orange and red feathers, a golden
skeleton of beauty rising ever
higher, into the night sky.
the marks on my skin have
faded and without them
(i don't remember. i don't know what i am
anymore)
could i look for myself in the
nests of birds and the screams of
vulpine creatures? dear spectator,
this is all you have, a lost girl
searching for a hopeless never-land and
some queen burning her way
across eternity. do we
terrify you? or do you want
us like you've
i want to write about a prison.
i want to write of chapped lips and
frostbitten fingers and the tintinnabulation of
a tin cup against cruel steel
bars. i dream in shattered prisms and the
ghosts whisper to me in the
voices of stolen children. i want
to remember rain-poured kisses
and the captive-bride moon.
i don't want to remember you
i want to write
about faery tales and escape into
eerie damp forests. i want the
wolf to come to me and whisper
sweet lies and air into my
ears. i will lay in the dirt while the sowbugs
crawl around my ribs and the
maggots form a sticky necklace
around my throat. i want the
fireflies to perfo
It had not been a good week for Maddeus Finch. It should suffice to say that the recruitment process Pryce Industries had undertaken for it's sometimes less than legal dealings, had thrown up idiot after idiot. After hours of fruitless interviews with people who he was amazed could actually walk and breath simultaneously, with misspelt tattoos, he was more than ready to throw in the towel. It was with this mindset that he decided to pose a challenge for those who deemed themselves worthy to participate in the rebirth of the machine that was Pryce Industries.
He entered the room , seeing the sorry lot whose type he was beginning to recognise
hey you broken-boned and bird thing
is there still soot clinging to your eyelashes
or was that just a vodka-soaked
dream?
if i pull you out of the fire will you
tell me that i'm fucking beautiful
no really, no really, no
really, tears of honesty staining and
calcifying your face, i am?
call me your shirley manson
because i would steal a ship
or do time for you in the same
way that i'm some supposedly porcelain
epitome of beauty, lace-draped helen of
troy, persephone edged in black and lightning
broken-boned and bird thing, you're
just that, irrevocably smashed like
everyone else who dreams in colour and
doesn't love me. its
I.
I found her sleeping behind the bricks in my bedroom wall.
I called her Hannah and she called me 'Pretty Boy' which I liked a lot better than George. When I first found her she was as bereft of knowledge and weak as a kitten. I took care of her, nursed health back into her shattered mind and wasted limbs. She would look at me with her green cats-eyes and the world would swim.
At first she didn't talk at all, just watched me with those unearthly eyes. I would wake up in the middle of the night and see her gaze piercing through my mind. It would follow me into my dreams and into my life outside of the room I was beginning to think of as h
i am untouchable
they took me from my
cradle and they bleached my
hair and my eyes while the bone-white
finger-moon looked on.
howling and tearing, i am not
myself, not anything, i am
untouchable.
i have no taste and no smell. i
am no colour and your eyes have an
aversion for me, while my
ghost-bones and see-through
fingers drift through all that is
real and true. i drift
i drift through time and i
am untouchable.
they burnt last year's
silver effigy on the fire
carrion shrieks and whoops
carrying the stink and the heat and the
sacrifice up to the blind sun.
shiver and shake when i come
near, see me too dancing in a
bl
they told me to burn my wings
there is a mirror and in
it i see what i should
be. i am 67% strange. i
look at the skinny box-girls
with their cookie-cutters and
shiny eyes and mouths. i
am 67% too much.
there are glass splinters
in my hands and in my eyes
and i am running away from
the siren's call, the
sirens' wail while the red light
flashes. i have gone 67%
further than the
edge of the world. there
is a promise in the glittering teeth,
there is a promise watching
me from the monster's scales
the world is a promise. i look for
it and it cracks amd shifts
into a hundred thousand drifting
shards. i lose 67% of them be
it's been such a
time-honoured tradition, how
can any man do
any differently?
it's there, the evidence
of it is everywhere. philomela's
a nightingale, cassandra's burning
in her tower and every
girl is willing, really, no
matter what she says.
who can deny the
pleasure of hard hands on
thrashing skin, of causing
bruises and tears, of your own
sweet salvation and release at the
expense of someone
else? it's a form of artistry, an
art of vermillion and indigo,
of fragile glass and ripped-apart
silk. you're just
doing what's always been
done and isn't that just
grand and good and godly?
dear lucrece, you should
have
dido's on her pyre and i'm
singing in the dark. won't
you take me and make me
somehow better, somehow real?
i want to evaporate. she's
gone incandescent, a vision of
orange and red feathers, a golden
skeleton of beauty rising ever
higher, into the night sky.
the marks on my skin have
faded and without them
(i don't remember. i don't know what i am
anymore)
could i look for myself in the
nests of birds and the screams of
vulpine creatures? dear spectator,
this is all you have, a lost girl
searching for a hopeless never-land and
some queen burning her way
across eternity. do we
terrify you? or do you want
us like you've
i want to write about a prison.
i want to write of chapped lips and
frostbitten fingers and the tintinnabulation of
a tin cup against cruel steel
bars. i dream in shattered prisms and the
ghosts whisper to me in the
voices of stolen children. i want
to remember rain-poured kisses
and the captive-bride moon.
i don't want to remember you
i want to write
about faery tales and escape into
eerie damp forests. i want the
wolf to come to me and whisper
sweet lies and air into my
ears. i will lay in the dirt while the sowbugs
crawl around my ribs and the
maggots form a sticky necklace
around my throat. i want the
fireflies to perfo
It had not been a good week for Maddeus Finch. It should suffice to say that the recruitment process Pryce Industries had undertaken for it's sometimes less than legal dealings, had thrown up idiot after idiot. After hours of fruitless interviews with people who he was amazed could actually walk and breath simultaneously, with misspelt tattoos, he was more than ready to throw in the towel. It was with this mindset that he decided to pose a challenge for those who deemed themselves worthy to participate in the rebirth of the machine that was Pryce Industries.
He entered the room , seeing the sorry lot whose type he was beginning to recognise
hey you broken-boned and bird thing
is there still soot clinging to your eyelashes
or was that just a vodka-soaked
dream?
if i pull you out of the fire will you
tell me that i'm fucking beautiful
no really, no really, no
really, tears of honesty staining and
calcifying your face, i am?
call me your shirley manson
because i would steal a ship
or do time for you in the same
way that i'm some supposedly porcelain
epitome of beauty, lace-draped helen of
troy, persephone edged in black and lightning
broken-boned and bird thing, you're
just that, irrevocably smashed like
everyone else who dreams in colour and
doesn't love me. its
i will possess your heart by JadedGrace, literature
Literature
i will possess your heart
My sister tried to kill herself again yesterday.
I raced to the hospital with its antiseptic smell that never hides the tang of death, just like I always do, my keys engraving themselves into my hand, bleeding bleeding bleeding just like her, just like she always does. The nurse, with her shifting faces and voices, with her amorphous features directs me where to find her and leads me down the clone corridors which shift and pulse as if they know a secret about me and are trying to hold it in. The room, always the same room, no matter that were in Cape Town not Johannesburg, or Pietermaritzburg or Durban or all the myriad of other plac
Current Residence: wonderland...and occasionally my own head... and occasionally your heart deviantWEAR sizing preference: S-M Favourite genre of music: Metal and old school
Favourite Visual Artist
My friend Jenae
Favourite Movies
CorpseBride, Romeo + Juliet
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Atreyu, Jefferson Airplane, John Lenon, Bullet For My Valentine
hello all things bright and shiny. perhaps this is a bit of a self-advertising thing, all look at me! look at me! or perhaps im just procrastinating so i don't have to study for my journ exam but i feel that it is time to do a list of the 100 themes i've done and plan to do.
1. introduction http://fav.me/d20jmij
2. love http://fav.me/d21rfny
3. light http://fav.me/d2dsqvi
4. dark http://fav.me/d29tm4e
5. seeking solace http://fav.me/d2dx8xy
6. break away http://jadedgrace.deviantart.com/gallery
so im finally at rhodes (sweetness) and everything is going really awesomely. im staying at margaret smith res and the other girls are mostly really cool though theres a few who are a bit bitchy. and no jokes, there's one girl who looks like a goblin and one girl who looks like an orc and two of the girls from cape town have no front teeth (a "passion gap" ek se)
by the end of this week my immune system is going to be owned so hectically coz they wake us up every morning at five so we can serenade the boys resses and then we're partnered up with a boy and we have to talk to them. and all of the guys i'v gotten have been really awkward and an
and all the kings men couldn't put martha together again.
actually i've always thought that poem is bloody stupid. you can't expect a horse to be able to fix someone, they don't have fingers you bloody idiot. pardon me its the meds talking.
so i fell down the stairs at work yesterday. it hurt like a motherfuckeer but i thought i was pretty much ok. my foot kept swelling but the pain wasn't too bad. my mom took me to get x-rayed and it turns out that i've broken a bone. she looked at me like i was insane since i've been walking and all. 'why aren't you in excrutiating pain?' sorry to disappoint. having a really high pain threshold helps some
Thank you so much for the favorite! It means a lot to me that you like my writing enough to acknowledge it, and I'm super sorry it took me so long to respond!